★~`sparkplug.
Sunday, June 08, 2008 ★ 5:22 PM;Well, thank you (whoever you are) for pulling my plug and setting me off annoyed. You should've been more considerate and understanding, honestly. I always tried to keep my cool and try to put reason behind the things you've said but the truth is, you were a little out of hand. I said I was okay but you kept on insisting things, you could've just listened. I know you're disappointed but you could've shown me some respect, or at least to my feelings. And i'll say it again, "I don't have to explain everything to you", it is because it is personal or I don't know the explanation myself and it's not that I don't trust you.
Pagod ka lang siguro but so am I, you have no idea. You even told me that I bring my internal problems with me when I go out. You know what? If you're in my position, I doubt that you can always keep it hidden in your chest. That's why I resist myself from telling it to people, because I don't want them seeing my trying to be happy when in fact I am not. It's a hard job. It kills me everytime I do it but what do I do? I always try to keep up.
You admitted that you're selfish and jealous, but you should've heard me out. It is not always my responsibility to keep up to your whims. I've been trying to spend every single moment I could with you guys, but please don't question me being with my college friends... it was a rendezvous planned by them and I said yes. I couldn't see any fault with that, but you were expecting me to choose to be with you guys and cancel my date with them. I can't do that. I've told you my reason, even if I really do want to be with you guys, but i've said yes already. It's plain respect for me to show up there. But no. I couldn't quite get what you were trying to point out in our conversation. You had sarcasm in your words and I tried ignored that to my limit. You even left some more even after I left -- very mature.
I was trying to sympathize with your disappointment, but what? You even said it was my fault. Too bad I already erased your message in my cellphone. It was not good to bear it as a friend.
And I don't know if you know this blog, but if ever you get to read this, I wanna say...
Sorry readers for this untimely rant. I just need to get this off my chest. I do hope you understand.
ETA: I said my apologies. My pride isn't something i'd fight over with a friend. Siguro my fault is, pinatulan ko lang ang init ng ulo nating dalawa. I'm glad it's all good now. Proud satin si Papa God. :)
And to Mea (chibilabs!), super thank you talaga. Haha. =)) That's like a superhero-kind of thank you. =P
But seriously, in our budding 3-day friendship, all I could say is that: God is great for giving me a friend like you and that there is no such word yet invented that could express how grateful I am for you. "Super duper maximum sobra to the highest level" doesn't even come close. Haha.
And why didn't I even think of asking your number pala. Sheesh. I will surely miss you much pag di na tayo laging makakapagchat. :(
~ Saving the World before doing homework.
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